Watch and Learn

The last week or so and been an interesting learning experience, more because of my awareness of what is occurring than what is actually occurring.

It may sound like I'm coming down with a bit of schizophrenia (is that like being a bit pregnant?), but fear not. I think it's more a new understanding of the duality. I am the watcher and the watched. I've been able to take on and look at both perspectives consciously while going through this new learning process. I've understood when and how I'll be able to grasp some of these new concepts as well as when I'm spinning my wheels. At the same time, I am pushing myself to understand this new material to the point that I feel frustrated at times (usually a good indicator for a break).

I'm sure there the reactions to this may range from: "What are you on buddy? And can I have some?" to "Duh! Doesn't everybody do this?" to "You are heading for the looney farm!".

Well, I stopped by the looney farm, and they wouldn't take me. :-) I'm not taking anything so blame it on the air if you want to attribute it to something. As for me, I think this is just an awareness issue rather than a new thing I'm doing. I'm sure my brain has played dual roles many a time, but the be consciously aware of it is something new, at least for me.

What does it all mean? I want be solving cancer, but I do think that it helps me better realize that I am growing into a new understanding. If none of this makes sense, well that's OK -- not sure I completely understand it myself or that I properly expressed it. Still -- like a new trick on a bike or skis or snowboard, it adds to the enjoyment of life.